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On the day Jake is supposed to marry Elizabeth he finds out he is Jason.(November)
Sam told Jason she figured out Elizabeth already knew about Jason. He confronted Elizabeth and she finally confessed she knew he was Jason for 7 months. (December)
Jason and Sam are testing the waters, hanging out and kissing a little. They agree to a divorce so they can start fresh. (This happens on the show in March, but pretend it happens in January)
End of January 2016
Elizabeth sat on the bench and watched the boats in the harbor. A lot had happened in the ten weeks since her interrupted wedding. She tried not to think about it, considering she had brought it all on herself. She stuck her hands in her pockets as the air chilled a bit more as the day turned into dusk.
“Are you hoping he’ll find you here?”
She didn’t even look at Sonny when she heard his voice.
“Were you ever my friend?”
She could hear the confusion in his voice.
She looked at him then before changing the subject.
“Sabrina told me she has another chance with Michael because you encouraged him to forgive her for lying to him. That was nice of you.” She looked back out over the water. “I just wish I had ever warranted that kindness. But, for some reason I never measured up.”
“That’s not true.”
“Really? Was there ever a time when you knew Jason and I were interested in each other that you encouraged him to be with me?” She swiped at her cheeks, shamed she still cared so much. “Never mind. It doesn’t matter. I know for you all it was about Jason.”
“And it wasn’t for you?”
“I only wanted to make him happy.”
“And if you were wrong for him?”
“How many times have you been married to Carly?” He looked away. “Besides, isn’t that for Jason to decide?” She stood and picked her purse up. “You all pretend you’ve never done worse to him. That’s fine. You all got what you wanted, Jason back to being whatever you want him to be and me on the outside.”
She walked past him, up the stairs and into the nearest building. He was about to turn and leave when saw Jason coming down the stairs. He waited for Jason near the bench.
“Why you would encourage Michael to forgive Sabrina for lying and then tell me you’d never be able to forgive Elizabeth for doing the same?”
“It’s not the same.”
“It’s not? Lying is lying.”
Sonny pulled at his scarf to do something with his hands.
“The world isn’t like you, Jason.”
“Is that true or is she right, that you don’t want us together?”
“Forget it. Answer this instead. Have you all done worse to me?”
Sonny sighed and looked away briefly.
“Yes, but it was a long time ago.”
Jason stuck his hands in his leather jacket pockets.
“So everyone is forgivable except her?”
“She’s never fit in with the rest of us.”
“Did you even try?” The silence stretched out between them. “I’ve got to go.”
He was leaving and up the stairs before Sonny could reply.
There was one light on in the building where Elizabeth went so he took a chance it would be hers. He knocked and waited. The door swung open and he noticed Elizabeth’s surprise and then resignation when she realized it was him. She stepped back to let him in.
“How did you find me?”
“I saw you enter this building after talking to Sonny. I took a chance that the only light was yours. What is this place?”
“It’s my studio. Or at least it used to be. I don’t paint much anymore.” She took a few steps away from and turned back to look at him. “Why are you here, Jason?”
He knew she wasn’t trying to be ugly or unkind, but it stung a little anyway.
“I’ve realized a few things and I’ve calmed down a lot since I found out. I’d like to know why.”
She regarded him thoughtfully for a minute.
“I did it for two reasons.” She walked to the window and looked out. “I liked you as Jake. It’s easy to say now things were easy with you because of the underlying feelings we had as Jason and Elizabeth, but we fell for each other without knowing any of that.” She kept her hand on the window, but looked at him. “I was already halfway in love with Jake when I found out you were Jason and I wanted to hang onto that a little longer.”
“And the second reason?”
She looked back out the window and swallowed roughly.
“I knew Jason would leave me.”
“You don’t know that.”
She looked at him again, this time with tears yet to fall.
“Yes, I do. He always did.”
“I am not him.”
“You’re with her, aren’t you?” He didn’t know what to answer to that. “My point is this. It was always too dangerous for us to be together. Which really just meant Jake and I weren’t enough.”
“I don’t believe that.”
She cried out.
“You married her after everything she did to us. We always had to sneak around and never tell anyone, but you married her and had a baby with her that everyone knew about!” She sighed and spoke quietly. “I started it all by asking you to give up Jake, but then I could never get out from under it.”
He wasn’t sure he wanted to know, but he asked anyway.
“What did she do to you?”
“It may not be fair, but I’m not going to answer that. You need to ask Sam or Spinelli. I’m pretty sure he knows. I don’t know if you’ll believe me and I won’t put myself through being treated like a liar again.”
He thought about it and then nodded.
Her voice was sad.
“Is there anything else?”
“I need to apologize to you.”
Her head came up in surprise.
“Apologize for what?”
“I lied to you, too. I told you I didn’t care who I used to be. I didn’t realize how wrong I was until I had my identity in hand and felt cheated.”
She gave a little half nod.
“It doesn’t change anything, but I accept your apology.”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m sorry. I’m tired and I don’t mean anything.” She walked to the table by the door and picked up her coat. “I should get home and put the boys to bed.”
“Let me help you with your coat.”
He took her coat and helped her put it on.
“Thanks. Call whenever you want to see Jake.”
She picked up her purse.
He was still mulling over her tone after he’d walked her to her car. He needed to find Spinelli.
Sam opened the penthouse door at Jason’s knock. She smiled invitingly.
“Come on in.”
“Danny’s already in bed, but I can get him up.”
“No. Don’t disturb him. I came to talk to you.”
“Oh. Even better. Want a beer or we can order dinner?”
She sat on the couch and he sat on the other end and twisted to look at her.
“What did you want to talk about?”
He thought she paled a little, but he wasn’t sure.
“I’ve heard some things from when Jake was born.”
Her voice was biting.
“Heard some things? Yeah, right. What did Elizabeth tell you?”
“What makes you think it was Elizabeth?”
“Oh, please. She hates me.”
“Does she have reason to?”
“Of course she does. She’s jealous you married me and not her.”
“Is that all?”
“Come on, Jason. What more do you need?”
“It was all so long ago. Everyone moved on.”
“Doesn’t matter. I want to hear your side.”
She jumped up off of the couch and started pacing in front of the fireplace.
“You’ve got to understand, Jason. I was in a really bad place. I’d just found out my boyfriend lied to me and had a baby with another woman. I couldn’t have a baby and you had had one with Elizabeth.” She took a breath. “So when I saw a woman kidnap Jake I let her. She had lost her baby to a fire and took Jake when Elizabeth had her back turned. I was so angry and hurt, Jason! You’d betrayed me and when she took him I froze.”
“How long was he missing?” Silence filled the room. “How long, Sam?”
She pursed her lips before answering.
He hung his head.
“And the incident in the park?”
“Come on, Jason. I did you a favor. She’s not cut out for this life.” His silence made her nervous. She joined him on the couch again, close enough to touch. She covered his hands with hers. “This life is ours, Jason, not hers.”
“And I was just okay with you hiring those men?”
“Well, no.” She pulled her hands back and crossed them over her chest. “You were angry for a long time, but eventually we worked things out.”
He stood up.
“Thank you for telling me. I’d like to kiss Danny before I head out.”
She stood up, too.
As he went upstairs he knew she wasn’t sure of what was going on, but neither was he.
Three months later
Jason slowed to a stop and turned off the engine. He nudged the kickstand down and swung his leg over the motorcycle to stand up. He took off his sunglasses and stowed them in the saddlebag. He straightened his leather jacket and headed to the courtyard. He didn’t even acknowledge Nikolas and Hayden eating outside. He opened the door and barely heard the bell ding announcing his arrival into Kelly’s. His plan had been to get something to eat and then go see Elizabeth, but she was there, with her boys, eating lunch. She looked up and realized it was him. She looked wary, but welcoming.
“Jason! You’re back.”
He tried to answer her, but the boys had jumped up and raced to him, talking over one another, excited to see him.
“Hey, guys. Whoa, whoa.” He laughed. “I just talked to you two days ago.” They laughed with him and walked with him back to their table. Jason couldn’t keep his eyes off Elizabeth. “Boys, why don’t you go pick out a dessert to eat later?” They didn’t need to be told twice and the table was quiet. Jason sat in on of the empty chairs. “Yes, I’m back.”
“Are you staying?”
“Yes. I had a lot of thinking to do. And research.”
“Research? What kind of research?”
“I needed to know who Jason Morgan was.”
Her eyes widened.
“Oh. Did you find out?”
“I did. Is it alright if I come over later? Maybe have dessert with the boys and then talk?”
There was something different about him, but she couldn’t put her finger on it.
The boys came back with their desserts boxed up.
“Hang onto those, boys. I’ll be at your house after dinner and we’ll eat them.” The boys cheered. “I’m going to get your lunch. See you later.” He kissed her forehead and went to pay. It proved difficult, but she gave her boys her attention. Yet she wondered what the evening would hold for them.
Once again Sam found Jason on the other side of her door. It had been three months since she had seen him. He called all the time talking to Danny and weekly to her. She had been afraid when he left the last time, but things hadn’t seemed to change too much, other than being gone. She welcomed him in.
She called up the stairs.
“Danny! Your dad is here!” She looked at Jason. “My mom is about to pick him up, but I can cancel.”
“No, don’t cancel. I’ll spend time with him until she gets here, but I’d like to talk to you.”
She couldn’t tell anything by his tone or facial expression and was interrupted in her thoughts when Danny came racing down the stairs.
“Hey, what’s up?” He picked Danny up. “Did you grow while I was gone?”
“Yep. Mom had to buy me new clothes. I hate shopping.”
“I know the feeling.”
“How was your trip?”
“It was fun.”
“I liked the cards you sent.”
“Good. I thought you might like to see the places I’d been.”
Danny’s answer was superseded by a knock at the door. Sam opened it and Alexis was waiting.
“You ready, Danny? Oh, hi Jason.”
“I’m ready, Grandma. Will you be here when I get back, Dad?”
“No, but we’ll do something tomorrow, okay?”
“Okay! Bye, Mom and Dad!”
He was out the door and pushing the button for the elevator in no time. Sam closed the door reluctantly.
“Are you back for good?”
“I am. I had to figure some things out.”
“I had to figure out who I was, who I am and how to combine the two.”
“I guess you did.”
“I realized that while I am Jason Morgan my life before as him is in the past. Trying to recreate what was isn’t going to work.”
“But we’re happy together.”
“I don’t really feel that way about you.”
“I knew I was your husband and I tried to make that relationship work because it was expected, but I am not in love with you.”
She stalked to the other side of the room to keep from lashing out physically.
“This is about Elizabeth?”
“No, this is about you and me. Sam, Jason Morgan really exists in name only. I don’t remember anything about my life before and I can’t do things that he did just because we share the same name.”
“But I love you.”
His voice was gentle.
“You love him. I’m sorry.” He turned and opened the door. He looked back. “I really am.”
Jason settled into Sonny’s couch while the other man took the oversized chair.
“Thanks. I appreciate you not giving me a hard time about needing some time.”
“I know it’s been a big adjustment.”
“Yeah. But I’ve made peace with it, for the most part.”
“Does that mean you’re ready to come to work?”
His hands clenched into fists, but his voice held no anger.
“Yeah. But things are going to be different.”
“I figured. Sam called.”
Jason sat up straight.
“We really are incestuous, aren’t we?”
“Why should she call you? This is between me and her.”
“I’m a grown man, Sonny. I’m not going to be pressured by anyone anymore.”
“Is that what you felt we did?”
“Didn’t you? Why else would she call you? Because she thinks you can persuade me to change my mind?” He shook his head and rested his elbows on his knees. “Even when I found you on the docks with Elizabeth you were telling me she wasn’t right for me. If Carly even thinks I’m thinking about Elizabeth she’s harping on me. Sam good. Elizabeth bad. I’m tired of it and I’ve gone along with it long enough.”
“So you’re going back to Elizabeth after everything?”
“How many times have you forgiven Brenda and Carly?”
“How do you know about Brenda?”
“I learned a lot while I was gone.” He sighed. “I’m not saying you have to like it, but I am expecting respect.” He wanted Sonny to understand him. “That’s what friends would do.”
“You’re right. But I wouldn’t hold my breath about Carly.”
“I will handle Carly.”
Sonny leaned back in his chair. Jason seemed determined and he knew Carly would be too. This was going to be interesting.
Hi arms wrapped around Carly since she had flung herself at him.
She finally let go of him and walked back around to her side of the desk and sat.
“I’m so glad you’re back. I can’t believe you deserted me for three months.”
“I didn’t desert you. I called you every week.”
“Yeah, but it’s not the same. Who else is going to talk me down from crazy stuff.”
“Carly, I’m not your keeper.”
She frowned at his tone, but it didn’t stop her.
“You know Sonny pushes my buttons.”
“And he pushes yours. He’s your husband, Carly. Work it out with him.”
She frowned again.
“Does Sam know you’re back? She’ll be so happy.”
“I’m not getting back together with Sam.”
“What? Come on, Jason. You guys are supposed to be together.”
“You were married.”
“The old Jason was married to her. I don’t feel that way.”
“But you could try. You have to try.”
“Why do I have to be with Sam?”
“Because she’s just Sam.”
“What does that even mean?”
His voice was practically a growl.
“Fine. She won’t take you away from me.”
“So you want me to be with Sam because you’ll come first. And if I’m with her I won’t be tempted to try with Elizabeth?”
“She kept you from us!”
“As soon as you found out I was Jason you decided she wasn’t good enough for me, even before we knew she lied.”
“She isn’t. Besides, you love Sam.”
“He loved Sam. I love Elizabeth.”
She stood up.
“No. She lied to all of us!”
“You’ve never lied to people you love?” She stalked to the window and looked out. He waited until she looked back at him. “No more badmouthing Elizabeth. I am going to work things out with her. I love you, but I won’t let you get in the way.” He headed to the door and looked back before turning the knob. “I mean it, Carly.”
Dessert was a noisy affair. The boys were eating their chosen desserts from Kelly’s and Elizabeth made her and Jason ice cream sundaes.
“Don’t look at me like that, Jason.”
“Oh, I’m not looking at you. I’m looking at that sundae you made. Chocolate, chocolate and oh, let’s see….more chocolate.”
She laughed and shrugged.
“Mom loves her chocolate.”
Elizabeth winked at Cameron.
“Traitor.” Elizabeth sat back and ate her ice cream while the boys plied Jason with question after question. She knew they had missed seeing him, but was glad they had been able to talk to him on the phone. By the time she finished the boys had already gotten Jason upstairs to play. She went into the living room and called up the stairs. “Boys, jammies and teeth!”
She went back into the kitchen to clean up dessert. She picked up a couple of bowls and headed to the dishwasher.
“Hey, let me help. The boys are upstairs racing to see who finishes first.”
He threw the takeout garbage away while she wiped the table off.
He followed her upstairs and helped get the boys settled into their beds. She lingered in each room to give herself a few more minutes before going downstairs. When she finally came into the living room he was looking out the window.
“Thanks for letting me invite myself over.”
“You’re always welcome, Jason.”
“I appreciate that. You mind joining me on the couch?”
He stepped back to let her pass and he settled near her. Her hands were shaking so she clasped them together in her lap.
“Why am I nervous?”
“If it helps I’m a little nervous, too.” She gave a little smile at his reassurance. “I would like to apologize for how I handled things in the winter.”
“No, Jason. I’m the one who lied and kept lying.”
She trailed off when he put his hand up to stop her.
“Nevertheless, I didn’t handle it well. Finding out I was a mob enforcer in my previous life and having the family right in front of me that I said I didn’t care about affected me more than I thought it would. Top it off with finding out you knew and.” He broke off. “I was ugly to you and for that, I am sorry.”
“It’s okay, Jason.”
“I spent my time away finding everything I could about my previous life and all the people in it.”
“And what did you find out? You never would tell us what you were doing.”
“I needed to find out who I was without everyone giving me their version of my life. I took Spinelli with me and I asked him to tell me what he knew about the summer Jake was born. He used his computer to find out the rest. I found out I don’t really like who I used to be. I can’t believe you gave me another chance after I went back to Sam.”
“You weren’t him.” She shook her head. “You aren’t him no matter what your name is. Yes, I told Nikolas I was finally taking my chance with Jason, but I didn’t really see you as him.” She shrugged. “I don’t understand why he went back to her which only made me feel more inadequate, but you never have.”
“I’m still trying to work through knowing you lied, but I want to fix things. I like our life, Elizabeth, and I want to see what the future holds.”
She was trembling and he finally took her hands in his.
“I don’t know what to say.”
“Let’s make it simple.”
“I can handle simple.”
“Will you go out on a date with me?”
She knew all the reasons she should probably say no and they all had names of her and Jason’s friends, but if she could work things out with him and give the boys their family back it would be worth it. She took a deep breath and went for it.